Here it is, March and I have not posted. It is very obvious to me that blogging is not my thing. I wish it were, but if it were I would be posting and I'm not.
I think I have a lot to offer to people when it comes to life's troubles as I've experienced just about all of them in my 68 years of life. I believe I should share only if someone is in need and not push my opinions and beliefs on others. I have learned many lessons.
In the last few years I have had so much to deal with that I have taken the time to mentally meditate and sort through the "stuff" that weighed me down. Why am I not sociable? Where has my sense of humor gone? Why can't I find it?, Will I ever find an avenue of making some extra money to get me through the rest of my life?. So many questions. I have learned through meditation that the only thing I need to do at any given moment is address the current "now" situation I find myself in. And I find that at just about every given moment I am happy. I have shed the worry and of all my questions and given them up to faith. Faith that some higher power will protect me, will provide what I need and see me through the ever changing world around me. And it has worked.
I am finding myself coming out of my shell that I put myself in as members of my family and friends have passed on to another realm. The hurts, the pains, the grieving was all too much and I silently and unconsciously or consciously tucked myself away. The only people I was in touch with were my family and a few and I mean just a few close friends. And they were scarce. I seemed to ignore a lot of people because I could see turmoil in their lives and I had had enough of my own to want to be near or around or in theirs. But, at the same time, I was an observer.
I watched how other people dealt with their issues, I watched as love seemed to carry them through, I watched as others were struggling with human stress or not. I offered opinions when I thought I could help, realizing that they have to decide for themselves if the opinion is helpful, and not up to me. I shed myself of everyone else's life and concentrated on my own. It is good. I am blessed by what I have and the family I have helped to raise. They are all good people and contributing to make the world just a little better and a lot nicer. I consider this my biggest accomplishment in life.
One area of my life that has made the biggest change is my line dancing. Even though I have been line dancing nearly 4 or 5 years, (not counting) I barely know anyone there. Sure I know their faces and a lot of names and see them every week, but have made little to no effort to really befriend them. This is now changing. It is changing because I have spent the years watching their interaction, and their dancing, but mostly how they treat one another. They are probably the nicest group of people I have ever encountered. I see them hug each other each week as they greet one another. I have never in the years heard an argument or seen a negative reaction to anything in the environment around them. They are not just kind, but generous of spirit, always willing to help one another learn. I am proud to be a part of this group. I will stay with them as long as my legs will hold me up.
So this is my current state of affairs. I am happy, I am loved, I am full of hope that my life will continue to grow and provide me with what I need.
Tomorrow is Easter. A new beginning for all of us. I am wishing you all a Happy Easter spent with the ones you love. Rejoice. The world is anew.
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